Insomniac's blog

I was reading my friend's blog (The Amazing Raye), and decided to borrow this line from her:

"I found myself recently feeling quite reflective upon where I am in my life and where I'd like to go. It is amazing how much you can still learn about yourself, even at my age, if you just stop bitching for 5 minutes and start listening to your heart. Amazing things happen when you do that."

So, I decided to take five minutes to stop bitching and listen to my inner thoughts. I've come up with the following things I need to do in my life:

1. Stop listening to the pettiness of people who are insecure with themselves and therefore need to make other people feel insecure.

2. Take time to love myself more. Don't get me wrong...I really do like myself, but I seldom take the time to embrace my idiosynchrasies and to let my true self shine. I tend to be an adapter...I become what people would like me to be.

3. To tell a few certain someones how I feel about them. I'm not very good at expressing my emotions, unless I am happy or pissed off, then I seem to have no problem whatsoever. Basically, I have built up a wall around my more feminine or more sensitive emotions and I need to let go of part of that.

4. I need to keep pushing for my goals. Lately I have lost sight of some of my goals...not that I have given them up but just the daily grind has made my goals go to the back burner.

5. Not to fret over the small stuff. Life is too big to worry about little things like zits and "does my ass look too big in these jeans" and what to make for dinner. I need to embrace life in a much larger context than I have lately.

Thanks, Raye, for reminding me to slow down and to think with my heart every so often. Sometimes I am a little too hard-nosed and I loose sight of my own self.