Insomniac's blog

So I've been thinking about the whole tuition situation and I have decided that I have to remain positive that something will work out. I have let the whole financial crisis get me way too bogged down in my own misery...well, perceived misery. I was thinking about all the people who can't afford the basics in life, even in America the land of wealth, and I have decided that I have too much to be grateful for to let a little thing like money (or a lack of it) get me depressed. I mean, I have three healthy and relatively happy children, a husband who is devoted and faithful, a comfortable house with lots of room, the cutest little Chihuahua in the neighborhood, and I am at the peak of my life. Awhile back one of my slightly older friends said that you do not really get to know yourself until you are past 30. He also said that your personality is not fully formed until you are 30 and I believe he may have been onto something. I mean, I'm 31 now and I am the happiest I have ever been with myself. I am still overweight and out of shape, but I am not all caught up in my looks and I don't compare my physical self with others. I have learned to accept the fact that God has given me this body and allowed these physical imperfections so I may as well learn to love it. I also have finally found out what I want out of life. I want to get that PhD and become one of the residents of the ivory tower (a.k.a. professor in a university). I have obtained a sort of calmness with myself...not complacency, but calmness. I know what I am capable of doing. I know what my limits are, both physically and mentally. I am a stronge and determined woman who isn't going to let money keep me from my goals. They are goals, not dreams. Dreams are ephemeral. Goals are something to be obtained. Anyhow, I'm going to do this...obtain my PhD and make it into the ivory tower.

On another note, FOM called me today. I left a message for him earlier and he called me back when I was in a mood. I was busy cleaning the house and organizing the kitchen cupboards. I'm afraid he caught the slightly bitchy and somewhat distracted Nita rather than my usually self. FOM, I apologize for my somewhat short-temperedness.

And, since it was the Amazing Raye's graduation party today...CONGRATS! I'm proud of you and I hope all went well with the party. I'm sorry I couldn't make it. Darling took the progeny out to buy me presents for Mother's Day and they were gone for three amazingly quiet and peaceful hours...hence the kitchen organizing. I do hope you got some nice gifts though!

Alright, enough of me. I'll post again later...