Insomniac's blog

I've been sitting here wondering what the hell is wrong with me? I mean, things are as good as they can get and yet I just feel frumpy and a little down. I don't know why...

Darling has decided to start going to school. I know...I was shocked too. He wants to get some sort of a degree in computer programming or networking or some crazy crap like that. Don't get me wrong...I'm happy that he wants to pursue something like this. But, in a way, it does piss me off. I have one year left of my undergrad then I was planning on going to grad school. Darling gave me the thumbs up for grad school but if he decides to go to school then I will have to postpone grad school and...breathe deeply...get a job! I want to work but I don't want to get caught in a job I hate. I'm trying to be supportive for Darling but I am a little upset by it all. Then I feel guilty because he has worked hard and long so I could go to school. Am I ingrateful? Probably.

School is going well. So far I'm all A's and maybe a B+ in one class but I am losing my inertia. This last week was Spring Break and I got lazy. I was supposed to write three papers and work on some of my lesson plans. Instead I wrote one paper, read a book that wasn't for a class but I wanted to read, and hung-out with my kids. They needed my attention this week since Darling went back to work. They were so used to having him around all the time that they were a little lost on Monday and Tuesday.

I don't know what is wrong. Perhaps I need a vacation. Actually that doesn't sound too bad. I would really love to go to Venice. Or perhaps New Zealand. Of course, Ireland would be good too. I don't foresee any of those places in my near future though. Perhaps I will just buy some exotic foods and flowers and pretend to be on vacation.

Anyhow, I'm in a poopy mood...