Insomniac's blog

Man, I feel like a total ass after the last post about how my family always celebrates Thanksgiving together and how much we are there for each other. This Thanksgiving at my parents' house consisted of just me and my family, my one brother and his new girlfriend and their baby, and then a friend of her's and her children. My other two brothers who live nearby pulled a bitch. That's right...they boycotted Thanksgiving at my parents'! My oldest brother rarely comes to special family events because he lives in Tennessee and just can not come up all the time, which is understandable. But, the other two are just being asses. I think part of the porblem is because the youngest of my brother's new girlfriend is Mexican...straight from Mexico Mexican. She speaks choppy English and is a very nice woman, but she is Mexican and my other two brothers are a bit prejudiced against bi-racial or bi-ethnic relationships. So, neither of those two have seen their new nephew yet either. Just fucking pisses me off beyond all belief! How dare they get up on their high horses and act all better than her just because they are white. ARGHHHH! If I was bigger I would kick both their asses.

Okay...I think I am calmed down a bit. The other reason why I think they are being ass biscuits is because of their jealousy. You see, my three oldest brothers are actually my half brothers from my mom's first marriage. When my mom married my dad he agreed to raise them as his boys since their father was basically worthless as a parent. Anyhow, my dad did raise them as his own and they all call my dad "Dad". As a matter of fact, my middle brother is the closest with my dad. Anyhow, lately the two who live in Michigan keep saying things like, "Maybe we shouldn't get all together for the holidays" and that "Mom and Dad's house is too small for all of us" and "We would like to have our own holiday too". Granted, Mom and Dad's house is too small but we could rent a hall or have it at my house since my house is much larger, but no, they would rather not go. Ass biscuits. I think they are jealous that the youngest brother and I are Dad's, but how in the hell could we control that?!

I'm just angry that they would boycott Mom's good Thanksgiving dinner because of their jealousy, prejudism, and because of their supposed need to have their own holiday. It is not like we spend all that much time together anyway, so what does it hurt to spend a few hours together every November? Oh well. What am I gonna do? I can't force them to be part of the family when they don't think they want to be. I'll still be there for them though. I can get angry at them but, after all, they are my family even if they don't act like it.